I miss my love muffin

2012

I was reading back through my blogs (which are sadly few & far between) and I saw that my first blog of 2011 predicted the year to be full of growth & change. WOW! I couldn't have been more spot on than if I had been able to actually SEE the year.

2011 has been a complete roller coaster ride. I finished grad school, had major surgery, moved to a new apartment (while in the midst of PT and recovery), started a new job. I was of course excited to graduate, yet wondering what would happen next. I had mixed feelings about the surgery, yet hoped for it to increase my quality of life. I was unprepared for how tough the recovery would be emotionally. I'm glad I had the surgery even though it's still tough. I found out how supportive my friends were. I battled depression. I found out who my true friends were. I lost some friends this year. Other friends drew closer. I learned so much about myself this year. Some "demons" from my past tried to rear their ugly heads. I'm working to shoot them down. I had no choice to trust God almost daily this year. His provision has blown me away. I made some tough decisions this year. My heart was broken this year. In the midst of the pain and the joy, I started my dream job. Pain produces faith. It produces character. So bring it on!!!!!!!!!

I'm believing God for greater things in 2012. I believe that God is going to birth some awesome things in me this year. I'm doing things to set things up to receive them. I'm letting go of things that are holding me back. And I'm trusting God more than ever to grant the deepest desire of my heart. He knows. He says my daughter, I've got this. I finally believe Him.